September 24, 2006

Letting Go...

I was talking to a good friend of mine and we were discussing our lives. She was seeing this one guy for a while and fairly recently she decided that it was time to walk away. She is also in the process of determining what career path will be best for her. We started talking about how we both have made decisions that involved walking away from a "comfortable situation" to pursue something we felt was best in our hearts. She made a statement about life being about having the ability to let go.

That statement struck a chord with me and I realized that letting go can sometimes be the hardest and most liberating thing a person can do. Most of the time we think about letting go and how it relates to romantic relationships and while that can be quite hard, there are some other areas where it can be harder.

One area in particular is in the job/career area. From the time we can remember, we are told that our life path should include leaving high school, going to college and finding the job that will take us into retirement. A lot of people do take that path and some of them are happy doing it. But there are others who don't find comfort in that path. I consider myself a person who took that path but with a planned detour after college. I've always wanted to be an entrepreneur so I sought out jobs that would train me for that inevitable fate.

Recently I decided to let go of my entrepreneurial ideals and take a part time job with a bank. At first I was hesitant but now that I've been in the job for a few weeks, I feel like it was a great thing to do. Now that I'm working in banking, I am gaining a skill that will always be beneficial. I have to be very detail-oriented and organized. I also have to deal with different types of people on a daily basis. All of those skills are very useful when working in entertainment. One of my biggest career goals is to have my own production company and produce films. I have already gotten the MBA (which I have heard is what a lot of producers have) so now I'm getting other skills that will help me in that role. I also decided that I can put that goal further off into the future while I continue to develop my professional and personal skills. Boy, being a grown-up is HARD!

Letting go...

It's the hardest and most liberating thing to do.

September 11, 2006

Remembering is important-Sept. 11 2001

Well I really hadn't thought about writing anything today until I was browsing my myspace page and saw something that had been written by a lady that I haven't known long but I have grown to like and respect her professionally and as a person. Now although I didn't read her blog (and I probably won't), I did decide to write something here that will explain my slight indifference towards today.

See although I was born in Chicago and raised in Atlanta, I really haven't travelled as much as I would have liked during my lifetime. A city girl at heart, I've managed to stay pretty rooted to the Atlanta landscape until I found a way out...college. After escaping to college in Florida and discovering that there were indeed people who had totally different cultural experiences than me, my appetite was stirred and hasn't lightened up since.

One of my first truly career-related jobs was a gig that I landed toward the end of 2001. I was working as an Assistant Event Coordinator with Elise Communications. The cool thing about my job was that our client was Levi's and my boss was coordinating the Levi's Self-Engineered Tour. Levi's had just come out with a new type of more dressy jean called the Self-Engineered line and we were putting together a concert tour that would expose the Self-Engineered jeans to the urban market.

It was great. I was going to be traveling with the tour as the Assistant Event Coordinator. The line-up of cities was awesome. We would be hitting New York, Washington, DC, San Francisco and Atlanta. I was elated.

Well our first show was scheduled for Tuesday, September 11, 2001 in New York City at BBQ's in Times Square. We flew up a couple of days before to get everything ready for the artists and other personalities that would be participating in the tour. I instantly loved New York but I definitely felt like a fish out of water. It was ok because everyone I was with was really nice and helpful.

I can still remember it. I was getting dressed for the day. Me and the stylist for the show were about to run an errand to pick up some clothes for some of the artists to perform that night. I was watching my typical morning show, Good Morning America. I was in the bathroom doing my hair when I heard Charlie and Diane make a remark about an explosion at the World Trade Center. They were very confused as to what had happened. Then the report switched to the regular newscast. By this time, I was sitting on my bed eyes glued to the screen. The anchors on the ABC affiliate in New York at that time were talking about what had happened and someone called in. Once the first explosion had occured at the World Trade Center, there were cameras honed in on the towers and the second plane had been videotaped going into the second tower. There was a feeling of disbelief as the anchors played back the footage and saw that a plane had indeed crashed into the tower. That's when the calls started coming in more and more. People who lived near the towers had been going about their morning routines and had seen the plans fly past their windows, way too low to the ground. That's when all hell broke loose.

Fortunately I was able to reach my mom before the phones got really tied up and she knew that I was ok but that was one of the loneliest times in my life. Here I was in this strange, new city with no family and virtual strangers. I had one high school friend who was in the area, but I couldn't reach him because of the phone issue. I knew that my location in Times Square didn't put me in immediate danger with the towers but no one really knew what the hell was going on. I went outside later and Times Square was quiet as everyone looked up at the big TV screen.

I was very fortunate because I didn't lose anyone close to me and I was able to get back home to Atlanta (we got out that Thursday) safely but that day really stuck with me. I have a bad habit of holding things in and not addressing them and to this day I couldn't tell you how I feel about that day. I never really dealt with it because I didn't know how. I had a first hand account of one of our countries biggest disasters of my time. This kind of stuff only happened on TV shows and overseas, not here. I still haven't processed it, which is why I don't watch the ceremonies or read things that other people have written about it. I'm working on it though. I suppose I may need to go see someone to really deal with everything but I haven't as of yet. I guess my first step is in acknowledging that I haven't dealt with it.

My heart, prayers and good wishes still go out to anyone who lost someone in that horrible tragedy. It was a lot of unecessary heartache and loss that only served as a launchpad for this war of atrition in Iraq, which has led to additional heartache and loss.

Thanks for letting me share.

September 05, 2006

Beyonce's Bday

Well ladies and gents, I have a not-so-secret secret. I am a fan of Beyonce. I've always been a fan of hers and Destiny's Child. I was glued to the screen when the group split up and then decided to replace the two fallen members. I watched that "Say My Name" video to see who the two new chicks were. I paid close attention to Michelle as she became a true member of the group once the other girl, Farrah dropped off. And yes, I know all of their names. Now that Beyonce has stepped out on her own, I remain a fan of hers as well. I was truly disappointed in the showing that Kelly and Michelle made with their own solo albums but it tickles me to see Kelly doing her acting thang so I will support her through the cinema.

Well I say all of this to say that I went out and bought Beyonce's sophomore album, Bday today. I was driving around running some errands and I remembered that today was Sept 5 and Beyonce's much awaited album would be in stores so I headed straight for the nearest Best Buy and picked it up. I must say that I was pleasantly surprised. I expected it to be a good album because I've heard a few songs from it but the whole thing was good. It was a bit short though but the 10 tracks on it are definitely ear candy. I would tell anyone to go out and pick it up. She has definitely grown up and improved on her craft. It's great to see an artist like Beyonce come out and grow and change for the better, all in the public eye.

So go out and cop Beyonce's new album. You won't be disappointed!